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Missing my act
I can hardly believe what I am about to say but I think I'm beginning to miss some aspects of being fat. Walking through life as a 280 lbs young woman looking for her marks, you develop coping skills...
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T as in Tantrum
A few years ago I was talking to a friend (I'll call her O) about another friend's impending wedding plans. At the time, O expressed a feeling of pain that was brought on by discussing these wedding...
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I can see clearly now the rain is gone
It's actually pouring in the NYC area but the title has more to do with the fact that I'm in much better spirits after yesterday's tantrum, lol. Don't get me wrong, I am still yearning for romantic...
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I am a doubt a minute!
I was gonna wait till tomorrow to blog but I'm tossing and turning in my bed...pondering things...so I figured I might as well blog now.First of all, I hope everyone's having a great start of a week....
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We now interrupt all dieting activities
Diets are about decisions. At each moment chosing the good versus theeasy. This week end I'm choosing the REAL guuud and tasty! Lol. The kindof soul food I love, and I won't even feel bad about it. I'm...
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Not escaping it...
A few days ago, I wrote to one of my blogger friends that I don't want tohear about Valentine's day. That I'd pretend it doesn't exist. I might aswell, cause this holiday's never meant what society...
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As the weekend turned...
2 weekends ago, I confidently shared my plan to take a break from dieting and enjoy some good food with friends. Well I did that. Food was great, company equally as good, but the break from dieting...
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My first tag!
So I've been tagged! My friend Lisa(http://theskinnyonline.blogspot.com/) did the honors, and this is my very first. I usually don't like Forwards and the likes but I think this is supposed to be a fun...
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It is almost all well...
I am not blogging much these days though I really want and to. Blogging helps me stay in touch with me and remain accountable but I’ve simply been too busy at work helping the new boss get settled into...
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Sprung into fashion!
Gosh the week end's already over... it's amazing how week ends just zoom by and before you know it, it's back to work! I had a good one, got caught up on my shows and sleep, relaxed, did some work and...
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well....
I am not sure how to even say this but I was basically back on the waggon for about half a minute today. I started out struggling to get out of bed for my 6 a.m workout, got an hour done on the...
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My romantic delusions
It's that guy's birthday. You know the one I've been having a "relationship" with all by myself, all in my mind. I've not talked to him in about a month, and last saw him back in January. But him &...
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O so silent
But doing real well. Sorry I've been so quiet in the past month...so thankful for those of you who checked up on me. I have been so into my work that I've essentially neglected everything else, even...
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218.6
After months of self neglect, I finally weighed myself on Tuesday. What I saw scared the heck out of me and sent me straight back into discipline. 218.6 freaking lbs! Like, why, how?...actually I know...
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And I'm feeling good...
I don't even know why I ever stop working out cause the truth is that nothing makes me feels as good as exercise. Today I feel like my old self is back, I am untormented, peaceful, relaxed, full of...
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Maxi dress
I was sitting on the bus this past Monday, minding my won business when I caught a glimpse of this dress on some woman walking down the street...gorgeous maxi dress, very much in style this summer. I...
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On Sabotage
"16 years ago,when spiritual teacher Marianne Williamsonwas first on my show to talk about her book A Return to Love,I asked her why she thought I was having such struggles with my weight. She wrote me...
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Lonely
Sitting on the bus, riding home...and this loneliness won't leave mealone...all's well, nothing to complain about, yet everything could usea good shake up in the positive direction. This is a feeling...
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My work around here isn't done
Truth is I may have been too arrogant to think I had acquired full control over my weight issue. It is now abundantly clear that I still have a lot of work to do on myself. Yes I've accomplished quite...
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Plan of attack
Ok, so in follow up to what I posted a few hrs ago, I realize I have to have a plan of attack against my distructive conduct. So tomorrow, July 6 I will do the following:1. Get my hair done, while...
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Mantra
Give the Lord the benefit of believing that his hand is leading you andaccept the anxiety of feeling yourself in suspense and incomplete. Aboveall, trust in the slow work of God. Pierre Teilhard de...
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I'm fine but very distracted...
So I'm getting back to my primary relationship...should b back posting soon. Hope everyone's great !
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3 months ago today...
I went through the hardest, most painful experience of my life. One that I always dreaded but didn't expect so soon. I lost my darling mother, my mum, sister, confidante, nurturer and best friend. A...
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On my birthday, I celebrate the woman who made it all possible
Mummy my love,Today I celebrate the happiest day of your life, my birth.The weeks leading up to it were charged with emotions! I simply could not bear the thought or fathom going through the day that...
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